The Healing Power of Forgiveness
This article is on the healing power of forgiveness, bladder and urinary tract issues and past life healing. This healing story is my own. I had been dealing with bladder and urinary tract infections since early adulthood. The first time I recall having a bladder infection was in my 20′s. The sudden onset of pain took me by surprise. It escalated in intensity and quickly moved from my bladder to my kidneys, making my back hurt with every movement. I remember going to the emergency room and getting antibiotics which worked at the time. However the bladder infections went on to became chronic and problematic. A sensation in my lower belly, which was a painful bladder contraction of sorts in combination with the sensation of having to urinate all the time, tipped me off to yet another episode. Being on a healing path personally and professionally, I moved away from antibiotics to Radionics (energetic medicine) which helped me quite a bit and for the most part I was relieved to have something that worked. There was however an episode – the last one being almost 10 years ago – that is noteworthy for demonstrating the healing power of forgiveness like no other personal healing story of mine.
It started with a particularly bad attack of a urinary tract infection, or so I thought. Experiencing tremendous pain, I could not sit up, lie down or even stand up. The pain was so extreme that I considered calling an ambulance and going to the emergency room. That being the last resort, I decided to try everything I knew as a healer and listened to my own advice, which is the kind of counsel I would give to my clients.
I felt the pain without defending against it or trying to make it go away. I said to my self, ”this pain is information, allow yourself to get the information that wants to be known.” With that I felt another sensation in my bladder and pelvis. If I really allowed the sensation, it felt like an unwanted penetration.
At this time, I was living with a friend who also happened to be clairvoyant (the ability to see beyond the normal realms). I woke him up to help me with this situation. Steven connected with me and looked at my (auric) field with eyes closed and told me what he saw. A group of young men and boys were standing around, circling a young girl.
The scene was Africa during missionary times in a past life. I had seen the young african villagers around me in a circle, even before I woke Steven. He then related the whole story to me as he saw it. The little girl was African and had become connected to the missionaries and the gospel they were spreading. She had visions of the mother Mary and was turning away from village traditions, causing a rift in the village. The boys or young men wanted to teach her a lesson and raped her repeadedly, in a tent-like hut away from the village. They ended the foray by kicking her, laughing at her and mocking her, asking her,”where is your mother Mary and the priest now”? They left her bleeding and half dead, to be discovered by the missionaries. The girl was seriously injured but survived. She was cared for and nursed back to health. She lived out the rest of her life on the Mission in service to God but she was never the same. I saw her clearly in my mind’s eye as she was kneeling in prayer next to her bed.
Usually when a past life reveals itself in such detail, the pain associated with that life relinquishes immediately. This particular case was a bigger issue of a Time Capsule (a past life event spanning a significant time, with an unresolved conglomerate of physical, emotional and mental trauma) presenting itself to me. The pain in my pelvis relented. I asked Steven to go back to sleep. I knew I had to resolve this at once and with this new insight I had renewed hope. Still feeling intense waves of pain wash over me, I was wondering what was next? In my mind’s eye I still saw the girl kneeling by the side of her bed in prayer. I knew of nothing else to do and I decided to join her at the side of my bed, in my own prayer. As soon as I did, it became clear to me that I had not yet forgiven the young men and boys for the torture and the rape. Given the severity of the heinous acts it is understandable that one would not ever be ready or willing to forgive, and there are many who would advise against forgiveness in cases like this.
However this is not how healing works. Forgiveness is essential in healing. To completely heal, to truly erase the trauma of the violence and to move the experience into positive reality, there has to be forgiveness. Without forgiveness one is left holding the undesired remains of trauma forever, including the pain and the weight of a chronic disease. Being a healer, albeit young at the art, I knew this important fact and I decided to forgive. Holding back nothing I forgave them out loud right then and there. The effect was an unsurpassed revelation. The pain that had been so relentless upon me left in all of five seconds and within 30 seconds it was gone completely. I was asleep within minutes, but not before marveling at the true healing power of forgiveness.
I never had another bladder infection.
Since then I have noticed in working with others that bladder and urinary tract issues are often accompanied by remnants of trauma relating to sexual violation in present and past life.